this is a cut and paste of what i just wrote in facebook of a dream i just woke up from. i guess this is the testimony of my dream:
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guys remember we were sitting at ffc tonight and adam was telling us of a dream that he had, but i never heard all of it because of interruptions, but i know it was a trippy dream. i just woke up from one, and i want to write it down before i forget any of it.
i dont know how this is going to come out, because i dont how im going to explain feelings that i dont understand. this was one of those dreams where everything felt "realer than real" as if God is saying, "pay attention to this dream." i was just flashing from place to place talking with other christians and we all had this incredibly overwhelming sense of...i dont know how to explain it...it was absolute and utter panic but mixed with joy. something was happening, but right now i feel like im not allowed to remember what it was, but something HUGE was happening and absolutely nothing else in existence mattered anymore because this thing was that big. then i was with jess and we were so confused about it yet filled with joy and absolute panic and i looked at him and i was like, "dude, its all about His justice! He made it this way because only He can do it!! He's going to do it!! it has something to do with His justice!! its AWESOME!!" we were absolutely frantic as frantic can get but we were smiling and jess was all like, "ya i know, its so AWESOME!!" we were engulfed in absolute and utter FRANTIC PANIC but filled with joy and then i had this feeling of deja vu, stronger than i have ever felt in my entire life, it was something BIG, so absolutely stunned i said, "deja vu!" and jess said the exact same thing at the exact same time, i mean our voices were harmonizing it was so exactly the same time. he was feeling it exactly the same as me. then i looked at him and and said, "God made us feel that, He made us say that!" then i came to the absolute and complete realization that GOD was right there physically with us and then i was filled with the FEAR OF THE LORD and fell down in complete terror, but not demonic terror, it was the reverent fear and i knew that it was good, but it was absolute TERROR!! then i extremely abruptly WOKE UP, like it felt like a reverse rapture like with a wind kind of sound effect and everything!! it was like falling through space and landing on earth!! and i was in my room with all the lights out, filled with the fear of God, my eyes darting everywhere trying to figure out where i was, my heart pounding, breathing hard, body filled with adrenaline, my whole body massively tingling all over...i was so filled with fear, but it wasnt bad terror, i could only say one thing and it was, "praise God, praise God, oohh praise God!" and then i heard very strongly that voice that speaks to the heart and He said, "ARE YOU READY?" and i was so afraid, in my mind i was thinking that im not sure if im ready, im really scared, so i very very cautiously replied, "ready for what?" and then the feeling left me and i felt alone in my room...and i was trying to compute everything that happened and i was overwhelmed with a feeling of deep inadequacy, i felt so deeply unable to do anything good for God, i felt so wretched and inadequate. and then the voice to my heart came back and He said, "I'm with you." and i was so comforted i kept saying, "Thank You Lord, thank You Lord, thank You Lord." and then i knew that i really could not do anything on my own, but with God i could do it, whatever He has for me to do, i could do it, but only by His power, none of it of my own. and i was filled with the desire to just serve Him, i just want to serve God, it doesnt matter if He has big things or small things for me to do, i only want the ability from God to serve Him from now on forward. i did have that similar feeling that adam had, i felt like the rapture could happen at any moment, that its very close, its right at the door! but like we said, maybe God wouldnt give us that knowledge, but maybe its just that He wants us to live our lives as if He could come at any moment, just as the Bible teaches. and then i remembered the prophesy of acts 2:17 where in the last days God will pour out His Spirit on all people, and sons and daughters, young and old people will prophesy and see visions and dream dreams.
so thats it, i just reread what i wrote and it doesnt even come close to describing what i just experienced. the emotion is just too impossible to describe. but its the best i can do. lets get our lives lined up with God and serve Him to the end. all i know from this experience is this: HE IS REAL and the next thing thats going to happen, the next phase of existence is going to be AWESOME!! God bless.
