every old non-christian friend abandoned me

well, i was in a psychedelic trance desert/forest party scene, and the candy rave scene before that...pretty much every single person that ive ever known in those old scenes will not have any contact with me since ive become a christian. i mean, in the candy scene when i was dealing ecstasy, i had literally like a hundred "friends" or more. early on, man, i just could not stop talking about God and Jesus when i saw them, even if i tried not to, it just was bursting out of me. instead of any of them converting, they all just stopped communication cold. im talking even the ones where there was so much "love" and we've been thru so much, gone. dont even return emails. those scenes hate Jesus, i realized. there were a few that stuck around, like one friend who was among my best friends and went to prison for manufacturing ecstasy...when he got out i thought for sure we'd stay friends, but i found Jesus while he was in prison, so everytime i saw him i did stuff like tell him about Jesus and give him a Bible. finally, i guess he got sick of it all, and now hes stopped all communication with me.

ive met good christians, but i havent met any christians that i can relate to deeply with similar experiences or suffer from the same things (like flashbacks from psychedelics) or anyone that i feel can relate to me like super deeply. so, it gets lonely. that is a fact of this christians life. i do have Jesus, which is enuff. but theres still that alone component...id be lying if i said there wasnt, and i feel that im being deceitful when i try to give them the appearance that everything is perfect. and i do do that. when i do get to talk to an old friend somehow, i feel i have to give them the appearance that everything is perfect, so that theyll want to be a christian. where in the bible does it ever say we have to lie like that? its wrong. and i feel pretty much all christians do it.